There is this feeling that I love him dearly. I would give my life up for him. But we are not meant to be. There are times he shows that he still has feelings for me, but then there are times he doesn't. It does suck that I can only be a friend to him. But I really don't care as long as he if well taken care of. I do that already :). lol. I just think its kinda funny that when I do show that I take care of him, he freaks lol. Like today I gave him his extra early bday present, 100 dollars. lol he freaked the f out lol. I laughed and said here now use it on your schooling you need ;).
I <3 taking care of him for some reason, but then again he is my ex and my closest friend ever. He is the only person I have ever actually asked a really weird awkward questions too lol. Well i thought it was awkward xD. I could go on and on about him but you prolly are bored now lol. But no matter what happens between us, I just can not seem to get rid of him when maybe i should have, but then again I do not think he would deserve it.
I do cross the line with certain people tho. Only two people are on my pure hatered list. lol. Which means I do not care at all on if they are alive or dead. That seems really harsh, but what can you do when they f with your close friends by trying to get them into trouble, lie, and alot of other crap. Especailly when you mess with me about my ex. You can not just randomly call me one day and say your going out with my ex, when he doesn't like you at all and you kept on about it. That just DOESN'T work with me. Heck I could go on and on about this ONE girl, but I shouldn't cause it would get ugly lol. :)
Ya I think i feel better now lol.
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